Thursday, June 24, 2010

Not up, not down... just coasting somewhere in the middle

Alternate post title: "Mleh"

I think I now know why I like to keep myself so busy all day long.

Today is a civic holiday so all the businesses are closed, the weather has been quite rainy, hot, muggy, stormy and all that jazz, and I woke up exhausted so I decided to have a forced-break from normal routine and take it slooooow. Vegas had some work he had to get done so I was by myself for most of the day.

And you know what?

I nearly bored myself to tears.

Basic chores such as caring for the flocks and dogs kept me sane, and despite the sticky mugginess I still managed to hoover part of the house (in capris and a bra, no less) in order to not go mad.

But shit, how dull.

Nothing on TV, nothing on the internet, didn't feel like reading or anything - my brain and body just flat-lined and loneliness has engulfed me like a foggy cloud.

Pity party for one, please!

I'm just glad this day is almost over so life can get back to normal again. Ticking chores off the list, enjoying the sense of satisfaction that working hard gives me. Getting stuff done, whatever that stuff is. Feeling the ache in my muscles, wiping the sweat off my brow. Not feeling like a useless pile of crap.

What can I say?

I'm a do-er, not a thinker.

Always been and probably always will be.

/end of Broken Dialogue Machine post/


Vegas said...

you've been like a 5 year on a rainy summers day - staring out the window and sighing a lot :) My Bride of Doing Stuff

Vegas said...

*5 year old

Busy Bee Suz said...

You just need to be busy that is all....a break is good, but only if you like it. We should call you the busiest bee!!!
I took a break the last few days on the chores enough for both of us. You are welcome. :)

prin said...

You just need more practice. ;)

C said...

we all have our moments like that. sounds like you are uncomfortable or maybe feel guilty when you try to relax?

its OK to take a break, to not do chores, to not do anything but take a nap or hot bath... or just be. get lost in a good book or go for a walk IN the rain.



Just Breathe said...

It good to be a do-er. I use to be before my asthma got bad. Somedays you work way to hard and you need a day of rest. Sorry you didn't enjoy it.

myself said...

ok this is usually reserved for people to tell me "woman you need to learn to relax!!!"

Candice said...

Aww... You need to learn to let go and take a day off! But I still think it's a great quality to be a "do-er".