I thought today was Friday.
The days all blend in together, it's kinda funny actually. I don't wear a watch so don't keep track of time and I often can't figure out what date we are.
I could feel lost but instead I just feel... free :-)
About ten days ago I decided to try something new to combat the rising anxiety and panic attacks that had dug their claws into me, clinging like toilet paper to the bottom of my shoe 18 hours a day. I woke up anxious in the morning and went to bed anxious at night, not really knowing what the heck was wrong until it hit me while writing down item 173 on The To Do List.
That damned list.
My life was being governed by unending tasks, chores, errands and "stuff", each hour of the day crammed with something pressing to do. What a horrible way to live - slave to pen and paper? No. Thanks.
I decided to test my theory and just... stopped writing stuff down.
The important appointments and "must not forget" things and dates still went in the To Do List (which is actually a day-by-day agenda book) but the rest were to be ad lib, as they happened and needed to be done. I always keep a loose list in my head to cover the basics but that's that.
And you know what?
It worked :-)
My heart rate is down, anxiety levels are down, panic attacks are less frequent, I'm sleeping better and have tons more energy. Who knew something so trivial could bring a person down like that? :-o
Anyone else out there have/had a similar experience?
/end of Hallelujah! post/