Thursday, April 15, 2010

Words fail me

I'm heartbroken, traumatized, wracked with grief and sick to my stomach. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep without being plagued by nightmares.

I had to take my first life tonight.

I don't want to talk about it, except to say I don't think I can ever do it again. Almost vomited from stress and emotional upheaval. I'm still shaking and don't know how to get a grip.

RIP sweet baby chick...

Heaven just gained an angel.

9 comments:

Whitelilies said...

I am with you... Hang in there sweet cocotte.

Have you ever had the chance to stop and think how life can be coincidental? It is - it can be. But first a quick question:

How long have we known each other? 10-15 years if not more.. oh wow let keep that our secret don’t want to reveal that we are no longer spring chicks!!

Any who, as the years have rolled on us like water on pebbles one thing has been constant with us. All these years we have been calling each other by term of endearment related to … chicken!

Today was a hard day but this is, my darling chick, part of your destiny

Love you always
Your one and only Cocotteski

Just Breathe said...

Oh no, I am so sorry. ((HUGS))

C said...

its so funny that your nickname is cocotteski cuz mine is zezetteski! lmao

i'm so sorry you had to do that... musta been a good reason.

it is sad.

c

prin said...

*hugs*

myself said...

:(

Piper said...

Comforting hugs and thoughts your way.

Jayme, The Coop Keeper said...

oh honey, I'm sorry. ((((hugs)))))

Technodoll said...

Whitelilies, more like 22 years girlfriend... how's that for aging? and yes, destiny is a mighty strong thing... i just wish that sometimes, it would be a bit easier. sometimes. xoxoxo

Just Breathe, thank you...

C, baby chick was born with a malformed pelvis and would never be able to walk :(

Prin, merci...

Myself, death just stinks.

Piper, thank you...

Jayme, I hope you never have do go through it... or maybe you have and then you know how horrible it is :(

Busy Bee Suz said...

You poor thing. I don't think I could ever do it either...just the thought hurts my heart.
Hugs to you, you did what you had to do.